What is LIFE and LOVE???

What is LIFE??i keep ask this question on myself..some people say that,life is short and glorious...But,for me,i think life is meaningless...I tried to make it wonderful but life is not beauty as you think.In life,we would face lot of matter,problem such as friend,love,family,study problem.How can we manage it??If want become a successful person,da only way just study??If like that,izit mean that if we not study,we cant become a successful and useful person??Life is hard and not simple..now im taking diploma in electical engineering course..What the hell is this??!!i really don't know...Honestly,this is not my ambition or aspiration..I don't give a shit on this!!My parents force me to came here,i really obscure.They say that this is the best opportunity for me..Izzit my future is on their hand??How come they can help me decide anything without my permission?Everytime when my parents drop a call to show solicitude for me,i just told them everything at here is fine although the reality is indisposed..Now i must learn independence..OK..then..What's my ambition??i wish that i can become well-known artist..STOP LAUGHING..it's true.i I told some of my friend that i want become artist,most of them sneer at me,plus the face countenance.I already knew that they won't support me.Among 10 of them,just only gt 1 o 2 person support me..To become a artist,izzit very catastrophe??Can i perform well in dancing or singing nor acting?Well..if got the chance,i will try my best to learn it and perform as well as i could..YEAH!!Now..i think just continue my life at here with a little hope that my dreams may come true in 1 day.......

What is LOVE??

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take long time to think it...i have no idea about the meaning of love...Blur up on this question..ok,since the topic is about love..Let me share my love routine to you all...Start with my frist love,it was happened when im in form 2.I think my age just around 14..Shock rite??.i still remember that how i knew her (Y).Y is older than me 5 year..It's all started during Lalu-Lintas competition,Y as the tutor of our group,she gave consideration to me than others...Soon,we fall in love each other,maybe im still childish minded at that time so accept her love.She very look after at me.But,our love been excluded...I listen lot of bad stuff about Y..I cant believe it at all and take no heed on it..Day after day,i felt her became more and more queer and tried to conceal something to let me know..One day,I knew that Y gt another boyfriend and already together long time ago....I really had a hard time..I make a decision to broke up with her..It's not about Y got other boyfriend by the way also included age problem..I never forget occasion when i said i want to broke up with Y..It so impress and i felt very sorry on Y.Our love just last for 3 month...But,what can i do??Just let it go.........Wish you all the best...........


Few year past..I meet her (A) during BI tuestion..Same as the situationof Y,although we just knew each other,but,we become very close friend in short time...Furthermore,A share lot of load on her mind to me..That why become very closed friend..Also in blur condition,i don't know when and why we will together.I admit that,i don't have any feeling toward A.But then,still blur blur together..In short time,we broke up..What a puppy love!!!haha..but,A now still my best friend,always share problem to each other...



During form 5,meet B...B give me a damn great impression..pretty,nice,cute,intelligent girl....That time,B just broke off with her boyfriend(What a stupid person in this world,can't you treasure B since you get her heart)..I try to close with B,thanks god,i really did it...But,some of my friend spread out the news(i wanna chase her)...I can feel B afraid me when we meet,we don't have any topic to chat when meet.But,in messaging,we got lot of topic to chat..Maybe B bashful..is ok..nevermind..Day pass by day,i felt myself gave more and more feeling on B..I knew that it gonna be worst.My presentiment is accurate,B told me that she don't need a lover,she just need a friend..This also some kind of reject style..I try lot of way to win B heart,but,it is totally useless....I told myself."nevermind,don't give up,gonna have a miracle".. What the hell...I'm getting jealus when i knew gt 1 of my friend very close B and i'm not intentionally on my studies...Everyday,i'm in moody condition..My friend advise me to put her down,i try to do it bt fail..After spm,i was so lucky because choosen for National Service....During national service,i meet C..All my friend always poke fun at me with C.After finish da National Service,still gt contact with C..At the same time,i thought that been with C can help me forget B..Soon,started to chase C..Although C accept my love,but,i still cannot forget B..I knew that it is unfair with C,but,i try all da way already..I still cannot forget B..So,i make a decision to break off with C and continue da love on B.I hurt C and i wont forget my behavior..GOD!!What am i doing?? Please..don't consider me as PLAYBOY..I'm not!!

For now,I think i really cannot do anything...What can i do is just...........
Waiting for your love to come through,
Waiting for you enter my heart,
Waiting for your answer.......
Sorry...i'm still cannot learn how to let it go....hope my decision doesn't give any burden to you...
B.....SARANGHAEYO....