dissapointed??useless??idiot??failure??

..as usual...i still nit to continue the stuffy life,i woke up and took a bath.Once again,im blur again.Brain keep thinking negatif stuff.Thing no need to be vexed but i also worry about..Next week is final exam,i have no mood to study.How come during final exam gt so many matter happen on me??What m i doing??.........sigh.....no comment....

I walk down to caffee shop to have my lunch,on the way,i saw a shadow..that shadow is be familiar wif me and i know well about him..He is the guy which...

*selfish??ya..i agree,i think he is not helpful as you ppl think,mayb due of some reason o benefit,he just will lend a hand to you..
*talk without consider other people feeling..He don't give a shit on people feeling,just talk what he have in his mind..i think this is the main reason that people dislike him..yea!is right!!

*bear grudges?ya..definitely yes.if someone have provoke him,hoho..he will remember what u hv done to him..n,if can take revenge,he will do so..can imagine that de personality of him??dun been lie by his outward appearance..
*lack of self esteem??yea..dun ever try discuss thing wif him..he dun hv confident to say out the thing.Even he know the answer,due of lack confident,he not dare to talk it out..That's him!
*niggardly??gt..This totally got..he is kinda easy get angry de ppl.u never see him angry infront of u rite??u will get know well about him after u mix wif him long time and all his truth face will be show out too...
*fail to keep an appointment??hah!!for sure!he is this kind of ppl..no matter how he promiss 1 person,act till can be trusted .At last,he also fail to keep apointment..when gt big trouble hapeen,he just realise or remember what he have done or promiss wif people..that time,is late to apologize anymore..is too late....
*still gt wat?hmm..for sure..many till uncountable..i also lazy to list out his weakness..that's all!!

After i went into coffee shop,shadow disappear..I just realise that,the shadow that i mention just now is ME!!..ntg to say...i 100% agree about that...so so so so dissapointed on myself.............

Leave me alone,
to drown in my self deprecation.
Let me blame myself,
for your sickening recital,
Let me sink into my personal oblivion,
where I can hate myself…


Who m i?m i useless??idiot??failure??..............................................

down...down...down..down...

damn down...damn emo...i dun know why...Can somebody tell me whY??Haiz..Let it..U are not me..hw come u can know wat problem i facing now..Extreme moody now..What the f**K..Hate this feeling..Izit becox of the final exam is coming soon?i have no idea..friend problem?love problem?study problem?What thing can make me so down??i so dissapointed on myself..i felt me..like a idiot live in this world without any purpose..haiz..who am i?curious on myself...What i can do is..just fullfill my parents wish to continue study at here...haiz...just hope i can do better during final exam...beside that,i hate people who try to maintain himself very comprehend with me but the truth is not...i hate people who like to complain a lot about me!!shit lar...you think you are perfect meh..YOU got mirror?go have a look on it!!In this world,dun hv thing tat is perfect de..don't u know this??please lar..can you widen up ur mind??hate it!!Ya,i should agree that,different people gt different personality,even that i also gt weakness o badness that many ppl dislike..but..i really cant stand your ''special'' personality!!you should know who you are!!try to rectify it!!
one day pass 1 day,i jz hope that i can find my right direction!!

Ko's Birthday...

Today,i gt BI presentation..this still ok lo..not so nervous as bm.hehe..erm,i same group with shirley and edwin,and our lecturer also got acclaim us lol.I'm happy becox our hard work dint not waste de..good good..hihi..Then,bcox we late and cant caught up the bus,so,we decide to have a lunch 1st then rent a taxi go bec to Seberang Ramai.After finish lunch,then we see our coursemate and ask them to join wif us..Taxi driver charge five of us Rm4..Don't know should consider expensive or cheap..
Then,afternoon,as usual,go class for bm.I meet Koh at there and realise that today is his birthday..Damn surprise enough...Don't know why.hahha.ok,then,after finish class,i go sailou room for discuss tonite wan go kuala perlis to celebrate o not..after "negotiation",we finally make decision to celebrate koh birthday at kuala perlis..After that,we decide go to Hai Tian to have a seafood..Yea..Oh Ya,forget to tell who gt join us jz now..Boys gt Edwin,Sai lou,Long Da,Jovy,Feng Da while gurl gt Adelyn,Shirley,Chei Kheng and Fu Fei..I think don't have liao guo..hihi..ok,continue my routine,after we reach Hai Tian,there already full of people and dont have any seat for us..so,Feng Da decide bring us to eat ikan bakar..I don't know how to describe this fish,can say suck lar..cox erm..cox...sorry,dun noe how to describe..haha..After finish,then fetch all da people go beck hostel lol..but then,all of them gatthering at coffee shop there,mayb all fo them gt premonition that later still gt 2nd round??haha..Sai lou suggest buy a cake for Koh.then adelyn and me and sai lou drive beck to kuala perlis to search cake shop lo..we all thought there have no more cake shop still open becox time is around 10pm liao..but,we still can succes find 1 cake shop n we quickly buy 1 cake for koh without wasting anytime..then,we went bec to hostel and meet them at coffee shop there lol..We have fun at there too..So..Ko,Happy birthday!!although cant get her wish,but,dun giv up..ok?dun be upset..still gt da chance..
I create this blog jz especially to u..birthday boy...KO..haha..kk,till here..enjoy some pic below....

Adelyn and chei kheng..Wat u ppl talking about lar??

ok..no comment on this picture..guess she is angry after see this picture..haha..
Ikan bakar that we ate just now
Adelyn and Fu fei,so happy de ???
YOU!!hmm...k lol..dun shoot u liao..hehe..

ok..fine,act cool with my ''wife''..dun vommit ya..thx..
With birthday boy,Ko..

Yea..Happy moment..
Sai lou,me and Ko..
ok..''lao po''..its nice picture,dun angry me ya..haha
Long tat..wat thing make u so happy?share wif me xia..haha

yea..lastly gt Edwin face liao... meeting?n one of them seen like very bz....

Last but not least....once again..Happy birthday to KO XIANG YI!!!

~~Friday~~

i M bECK!!!!

YO!I'm beck!!after i had my ICT presentation.I already long time din't update my blog..hehe..lolx..im quick busy in this week..I think not quick..erm..should be extraordinary busy!!so suck!!ok..after i present my ict stuff,then friday gt da bm presentation again..huh..actualy not bm oni,also got include bi..but,lecturer cancel it on that day..haha..how lucky m i..bt,my two coursemate be out of luck lo..Actualy shirley should present de bm on thursday night,bt then,lecturer postpone again..hehe.How bad luck lo..same situation as Edwin..nevermind..Wish you good luck ya!!hehe...ok,during my bm presentation,i make a big big mistake..u guys can figure out what mistake i have done..haiz..i upload de video to share wif you guys,hope you can enjoy it.haha.Beside that,i very admire my fren,Koh..He can present without look at note or paper..just on the spot..Even lecturer also acclaim him lo..hehe..


During my bm presentation....

Wow...this week really gonna F**K up my mind!!i dun think just only me gt this opinion,should be some ppl also have same opinion with me de lol..especially SHIRLEY..keep say..''im gonna become crazy"....ahahha..i think if she read my blog,sure scould at me now...lolx..
ok.then,monday have maths test,honestly,it is very very easy test,i think is more easy than the quiz..hehe..but,i don't have confident to score full mark lo..Thenthe next day,im quick happy because this is the last day we go to AUTOMART...haha..no need to suffer anymore..yea!!but then,at night,gt engineering science quiz..huh!i most hate this subject!!need memorise lot of formulae or theory!zzz...lucky just for 1 sem..if more than 1 sem,i think im gonna give up soon..hehe...then,wednesday gt maths quiz again..OH my GOD!!i wonder why lecturer so like to give quiz on us...izit Unimap will give extra wages to those lecturer who give quiz de??haha...just kidding,dun take it serious ya..
What have i alarm me is when i woke up,i saw my arm gt some injured part..I felt curious why i have this injurt part..my fren told me is infection..lolx..i quickly get help of ''doctor'' Unimap..XD!!But,my situation is much much better than Koh,he more serious than mine,don't knoe how and why he also get this infection..hmm.maybe both of us come from Sarawak??hahaha..ok...cold joke..
yea..this is it!!bt,look still ok in this picture,after see it clearly,it is very scary and
discusting...=.=''''

Next week i'm gonna in stress mode..because next week got electric circuit lab test,test,engineering science test..and de mini project for engineering drawing..What the hell!!?? Honestly,i dint tourch anything about electric circuit and engineering science..
Final exam is around the corner,i haven prepare yet.Eventhough i told my self, is time to start do revision,but my lazziness always defeat my intention..haiz!!really tension!!
Beside that,B.....i don't know when i just can put u outta my mind,smtime,when i sit alone,out of blue,your face will appear my mind again,is automatic ok??i hope can forget in short time but it seen hard..shld be insane task for me..i'm blur.damn blur..among so many girl,why is you?can someppl tell me why??just let it,maybe this is destiny.should face it..B.....really very very very miss you..keep ask myself,this world gt miracle??if gt,where is it?why still hvn happen on me??haiz.......................................................................
In addition,i realise my friend badness..niggardly,unhelpful,try to maintain himself very comprehend with me..SHIT lah!!You better out of my way before you piece me off!!That's all from me..................
.ok.is late,till here le..next time i will update my blog recently..

--thursday--

About me??

yo!!check it out,guys..i'm newbie..so..this is my 1st time blogging..maybe gt a bit lame,i will try my best to improve my self..hehe
i like haNg OuT wIf mY BudDiEs... do s0m3 insAn3,crAzy,stUpd stUfF wITh fRi3NdS... dsTurB FrieNdS... list3n musc... white n blue n green colour...sL33pnG... Dr3amng.. snging..
ok..I DisLk3
people C M3 WitHout rEAsON..(wIf dA Angry EYES)~~!!
people SUDDENLY SHOUT at me~~!!
people SUDDENLY DISTURB me While me BUZY~~!!
people who keep DISTURB me when im in low mood~~!!
people who BETRAY me~~!!
people who din't RESPECT me~~!! (i don't give a shit on you)!!!!
people who sellfish!!F**K OFF from me!!!
well,i don't know how to describe myself..also human being o..same as you..nothing special on me.

What is my faouvrite music?...I damn like tohoshinki song..they song are nice..TVXQ,fighting..suport you forever..hehe..beside that,i also like love and hip hop music.Its great!!

ok..beside that,i also like to spent money although im nop come from rich family.If my family knew it,i think im gonna in big trouble.haha.XD!I like to buy all de thing i like although the quality is not nice o best,as long as i like,no matter how expensive,i also will buy it..hehe..suck rite?haven start to make profit but already like to spent so much money..zzz..hope i can drop this bad habit lo...hihi..i think tat's all from me guo..have a nice day guys..

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im gonna be smash

haiz...late le..but,still doing blog module.I hate late sleep,it not good for health,by the way,my pimple will become more and more and more....DAMN....I should done it during holiday,but,i have to admit that im too lazy to do this.During holiday,i really hv a great time and bad time,great time is i enjoy slept and ate and play and shopping everyday..Bad time is.....Let it.I dont want mention anymore..you will knew it if u got read my blog..lolx..XD!Final exam is around the corner,but,i haven get prepare yet..I think i m gonna be smash soon,family put so much expectation on me..Let it be..Hmm..After this load of assignment,i think i should do revision on my studies..I already planing where to have fun after final exam and i cant wait it anymore.It is so anticipate and i think gonna have great fun..Ok..i think i should continue do my blog module..stuop here 1st..View my blog recently ya..thanks for your coorperation..hehe..